Lost and Confused

What is this feeling of emptiness deep in my soul?
What does it mean?
The Lord, My Rock and Refuge Never forsakes.
But I forsake the master.
My flesh leaps at every opportunity to fulfill my selfish lusts.
But my soul continually screams for meaning and purpose.
These things do not appear except through God.
My soul cannot grasp a purpose in life.
Through a foggy marsh I trudge. I look all around me. Why am I here?
I crash to my knees and I plead with God.
“I know that purpose only comes from you, so I give my life and all I possess to You.
Suddenly a thought slithers it’s way to the forefront of my mind.
“Well there is that one thing that I just cannot live without,
…but God is supreme. I give that to him as well.
“Lord, I have given you all that I own. Use my life as a potter uses his potter’s wheel.
What is this? The fog has rolled away. And the emptiness in my soul has departed as well.
What is this creature that rushes on the path to meet me?
It is God’s blessing. I greet it and accept it.
“I must be pretty good. I really deserve more of God’s Blessings.
I walk onward, but I discover that I continue to wade through a marsh.
Why does my way continue with so much difficulty.
“Lord, you control my life now. Yet I stare in the face of Trouble.
It’s nostrils release the foul stench of discouragement.
“I have not forsaken you Lord. Not this time. You forsook me!
Yet You have not departed, have you Lord? I only need to call on you for help.
Free me from this burdensome bog onto a broad and easy path.
Then I will be happy and I will follow you.
My demands fell silent as a chill filled the air.
A Noise! God’s Blessing was traveling quickly to meet me yet again.
But a dense cloud followed close behind it.
The Blessing attended my needs. “Thank you Blessing,
You truly are greater than all. You give me pleasure that none other can provide.
Just then the fog reached my terrain.
“Lord, I insist, take this fog from me that I may see in order to serve you!
I continued to fondle God’s blessing. I was happy!
But I was lost and confused.
I fell into the slush of the mire in which I stood.
All lights go out, all sounds fall silent.
Unconscious, my soul wanders aimlessly through shrub and thicket,
as the waters of life push me every which way with no goal in mind.
A New Day confronts me. I welcome Him.
New Opportunities follow closely behind Him.
And on the fiery, sun-lit horizon, I see peace; magnificent, everlasting peace.